i failed my first chinese paper 2 in 4 years today

oh well done yap jialin you have surely outdone yourself once again -.-

eff la. seriously taking higher chinese is the worst decision ive made in my entire life so far. Ive never regretted anything this much before. Can i just drop chinese completely like NOT even take mother tongue and screw chinese?

ive been through emotional ups and downs with chinese so much that im so sick of the language, the subject, everything about chinese just reeks of stress and makes me sick.

i see HCL on the timetable and i instantly wanna die already. Its getting worse and worse. I fail, fail fail. All i ever do is fail. Everyone can pass, i fail. I dont even effing get what the words are trying to convey anymore.

Once upon a time when my Chinese was good I knew that the storey that the words conveyed made sense and I could understand. Now, they make no sense. They are useless pictograms that just mean that im going to fail another subject, my mother tongue.

epic leh im so irritated and annoyed with chinese its hard to find a word to describe the situation.

and then english is another jackass just when i was gonna give up on eng i improve like BOOM suddenly I PASSED SUMMARY, I PASSED COMPRE. like wth miracle or what.

and first time i actually like got more than 17/30 for my compo also. amazing feat.

i hate chinese, i hate my chinese teacher, i hate everything that has to do with chinese. From now on i shall speak in english. no more chinese. yuck. euw.