JI♥LIN // melancholicwind

years go by and time just seems to fly

2011-06-21T00:15:00.003+08:00

so many things happened but im too lazy to blog!!

im sooo addicted to this korean drama dong yi i swear

its on ch u at 7pm on weeknights and i cant stand it i have turned to my DVD because its just too nice and i cant wait to watch the next ep!!

love how sweet the king is, he's so down to earth and funny and like took off his own hat to shield dong yi when its raining ;')

-forever alone moment- HAHA

but anyway yeah this drama has been so good so far, it made me laugh, cry, everything. And im not the emotional kind and its hard to make me cry over a show so yeah!!

and the other day i fell off while riding victor haiz bad day. Head crashed into fence but lucky for helmet im alive, abit scared after that but ohwell im ok now :)

shall go back to dong yi!!

singapore turf club riding centre

2011-05-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

had my lesson at turf club riding centre ytd and oh i got this horse donny, white horse with brown spots all over yes he's mega cute BUT HE HAS SUCH AN ATTITUDE i swear.

he kept pulling on reins and i had to fight with him, resulting in my arms being strained. then we learnt how to canter (run) which is preparing us for pole work and jumping..

DAMN FAST i told you first time i canter total panic mode i almost let go of reins and fell off -_- lucky never la. but my reins were kinda loose :/ and i was like being thrown around like a rag doll cos i didnt expect it t be that fast also, like omg paiseh only.

but 2nd time was SOOO much better cos i was prepared and i hold on for dear life, sit properly, hold neck strap, and went with it.

hence i cantered half the big arena (Y) i think im awesome for doing that on my first try.

instructor was happy with all of us for trying and doing so well for first try heh

but he has high expectations wants us to finish cantering the entire arena next lesson omg T.T

but i was a happy girl, it was scary, fun and all.

cabbed down to night safari to meet siying and lyc after.

awesome night, night safari was so awesome :D

today results -drum roll-

not that bad leh, i got 57 for higher chinese WTS I PASSED AND I GOT 7M MORE THAN EXPECTATIONS OK THIS IS EFFING AWESOME.

eng was....good i guess. i need an a1 from eng and bio :'( haiz tmr bio pls dont betray me i beg you.

cause i got you on my radar

2011-05-15T20:06:00.001+08:00

last paper tomorrow, i had a really scary dream that i failed bio with an f9 last night and it was terrible i was like utterly shocked and scared.

i dreamt last time i failed chi o levels with an f9 and in the end i got a b3 so please dont let history repeat itself. English and Bio are my must-get-a1 subjects :'(

haiz. stress.

cant wait to go riding on wednesday.

here are my awesome plans for this week:

tmr- finish last paper, go bowling with partner and 2e3 gang, and then thor at night with daddy cos i promised him, cos my mom refused to watch it HAHA.

tues - should be going out with my teo, i miss her :(

wed - riding and then cab down to night safari to meet the e2 tumblr crew

thu and fri are just emo days because result days have NEVER been happy for me.

found myself today

2011-05-08T13:01:00.002+08:00

i have realised something and i think its really important that i correct it.

i think sometimes im too hard on myself and i expect perfection that its slowly swallowing my emotions sometimes and its really bad for me.

one slight mishap and to me it would be a failure. for me, its either you are the best, or you are a failure.

and because of these "failures" i will go down hard on myself, i will kill my own interest in that thing, i will keep repeating to myself "how can you even achieve if you cannot even settle something as little as this" i keep torturing myself that i break down.

i have like really stalled so many times this year because of stress from school and from my inconsistent performance in all my subjects. one moment i can top for bio and the next i can be dropping all the way, i can get full marks for balancing equations and fail my next test.

its not doing me any good, and its not doing anyone any good. I need to stop this self mental harming and find some good sides of this.

I believe that there will always be a good side to things, and next time when i fail i will tell myself this. i shall stop slowly killing myself from trying to be a perfectionist.

because im not, and no one can be.

thank goodness.

2011-04-25T20:51:00.002+08:00

i had like a really good friday because it was TEO'S BIRTHDAY (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEO I LOVE YOU)

i wanna shoutout to her because shes been my awesomefriend all these years, 10 to be exact. 2424 miles away, perth didnt separate us, and when i came back we just bounced back to being good good friends. I love you teo for always being there, you're an awesome friend that is so hard to find, HAPPY BRITHDAY :D

okay so anyway

we went to national museum, epic cool, went for lunch at new york new york (nomnom nom so nicee) and canele french patisserie for french cake + macarons 8D so nice.

then i got home, opened my email

omfg i didnt get chosen for AFF volunteering. I was so upset, i didnt understand why i wasnt chosen, and i was just angry and disappointed at the same time i guess. Damn emo that night, damn emo.

i woke up on saturday, dazed. I lay in bed thinking, is this real, is this happening, and yeah no reality check needed, its true :(

went to dance, got through it and felt alot better, somehow dance always just makes me feel better maybe because its expression? I dont know, or maybe its because it just takes my mind of everything :)

but anyway i got over it, hey at least i went last year and met nice people like cosina!

so i emailed the person asking if there were any other openings on friday

and today i checked my email

guess what

he told me to apply for an internship because they needed interns

-pops champagne and runs around like a mad woman-

THIS IS NO FREAKING JOKE ITS AN INTERNSHIP WITH BLUEPRINT öööööööööööööö

all i can say is, thank goodness. thank goodness everything worked itself out, and hey even if i dont get in for the internship, theres always next year >:)

who i am

2011-04-21T21:32:00.002+08:00

im weirdly into personality tests after yanting intro-ed me into the brigg meyers personality test which was like SO accurate its scary :/

this is what i got from another personality test :

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

i want to be anywhere but here.

2011-04-11T19:04:00.002+08:00

having emo moment once again -_-

2011 has been a total bitch.

or rather, my actions have made 2o11 become a total bitch

i dont know where to rant and im sorry for doing it here BUT I DONT CARE ANYMORE. you can stop reading if you dont give a f, i really dont care right now.

first was my effing b3 i feel so disgusted by my grade. its not just about the grade, its like about trying and putting in effort and then getting absolute crap thrown in your face for putting in effort and giving your all. It makes me doubt whether theres such thing as justice in this world, is there even a heaven who will decide everything? I was so pissed off back then and until now I still resent myself for it, i resent my teacher, i just hate the whole situation. I cant do anything right, i cant even get a effing a1 and make my parents proud. What the HELL is wrong with me?!?!?!!?

then its bio, like what can i say, study also like equal to never study lor. pass by like a few marks only -_- what can i say, life and its usual shit.

last fri was the hell-iest day of my life that i totally brawled my eyes out and cry and cry like i think got one litre already -.-

its like i went through a really rough week and its like on friday my sis was transiting and like i wanted to just see her just to be hugged by your sister for a few minutes, just to be in her presence. I was annoyed, sick, tired, sad, angry that i had to be in school. It was a sickening feeling.

she went out for awhile and before leaving for airport she went home for awhile, and my mom sms-ed me telling me shes home so i can call home and talk to her for awhile so i went to the toilet and called home and then something epic happened.

i had mental breakdown in the toilet -_-

my sis picked up and shes like HELLO!!!!!!

so i was like "oh my god you're home.."

then she asked like hows things, hows school.

i cried leh i effing cried in the school toilet wts i hate crying in school its just lame.

so i was like sobbing and i said something like "bad, everything sucks."

so instead of talking properly to my sis she had to like console me over the phone and assure me that everything is okay.

i was so upset i didnt get to see my sis and bro in law seriously. it was killing me and the emotions just took over me i totally couldnt stop even my "have fun in japan" was said inbetween sobs and gulps for air.

im so weak its pathetic, i think im pathetic.

go i got back to class trying to not look like ive cried but then i think about not seeing them and i like start tearing in class itself haiz fail la.

i got home, lyssa and jean were there waiting to go for lunch and stuff with me

i go in my room

i see the stuff my sis bought for me laid on my bed

i see a note she wrote for me

and a 50 dollar note on top

and i lost it.

and thats how i cracked.

i was never truly happy ever since.

so upset about everything, seriously.

im 15, tired of school, tired of everything.

so tired and upset that i dont know what to do

i drown my sorrrows in music and movies.

so now, how?

its all over

2011-04-10T20:35:00.003+08:00

its all over, my one year of hard work.

finished internal exam

i was so nervous i made a stupid mistake but my teacher told us to relax and BREATHE hahahaha then it was alright from then on :)

got a 91/100 but i think i deserved to be marked down even more cos my teacher was just too lenient but aiya nevermind its over and i danced my ass off so thats all that matters.

if theres one thing i learnt from dance, it has to be felt. You have to add feelings and emotions into dance or it will just be an emotionless movement which looks pretty bad.

going out for dinner soon, i wanna post about this song!!

its so good!!! its so me ;D

life

2011-04-08T21:12:00.003+08:00

have i mentioned this drama?? its on channel u at 7pm everyday i cut in halfway and started watching cos apparently so many people keep telling me its good (yumin, qingyun, and few others i forgot!!) so i just went and watched and now its like a daily thing to plop on the couch at 7pm to watch tv (yes i fight with my parents cos they wanna watch channel 8 stupid ai)

after this series ends im going to have bad withdrawal symptoms as usual :(

but after this is dong yi so YES I CAN WATCH DONG YI NOW.

i have the disc just that i dont have time. now that i dedicate my 7pm slot to tv i can watch it peacefully.

im stressed that mye is coming and i dont wanna screw up haiz. -_-

i dont want to be rich i dont expect to have a good life.

what do i want from life?

i want to be happy. thats all. happy.

well this could almost kill me

2011-04-05T15:20:00.003+08:00

10 DAY “THREE” CHALLENGE
10. Three Strengths of Yours
9. Three Weaknesses of Yours
8. Three Things on Your To-Do List
7. Three of Your Favorite Foods
6. Three Things You Do Daily
5. Three Things You Regret
4. Three People Who Changed your Life
3. Three of Your Favorite Movies
2. Three Songs You Could Put On Repeat Forever
1. Three of Your Biggest Fears

i shall do this in a ~~vain~~ attempt to revive my very stony blog :/well come on who likes blogspot when you've got twitter and tumblr to rant right.

things that happened: i bought a polaroid camera (!!!!!!!!), SPA exam is over for bio YES. this sunday is gonna be fun, im still waiting for the call to tell me im accepted into aff 8D okay hopefully la.

10. Three Strengths of Yours

im a stubborn person, even if people tell me its impossible i will still go on with it because im just too stubborn to give up or be proved wrong.
i work well when i like something, like for history i really do like it so its like my only good subject :'(
im good at lyrics!!! (idk how the hell my brain fits like so many songs actually)

2011-03-25T19:41:00.002+08:00

isnt this the nicest song ever. 2:52 onwards is my favourite part!!

light in the hall and a key under the mat

2011-03-20T20:23:00.002+08:00

went to watch the riding event at turf club riding centre with lycia ang kok wah today.

so many accidents but no one was injured THAT badly.. sooo many people just fell off the horse!!!

and some horses are just like being their usual selves, stopping RIGHT before the jump zzzz -.-

i shall upload the videos soon when i have time

only a few zai pretty Caucasians kinda totally ruled the entire show...

which was good to watch because they recovered so nicely from ALMOST falls.

booked my lesson on 17th by that time ballet internal exam would be over YES.

so long lor :(

haiz. slept like some mad pig today after the show so i gotta chiong work now cos i havent done holiday work shit.

im not going to wake up tmr man. i will just like die.

till the world ends

2011-03-15T12:12:00.003+08:00

i had riding on sunday at my usual turf club riding centre and something crazy happened

we were having our lesson as usual and i was like super scared of getting johnno like i did last week and crazy johnno i almost fell off him -.- so yeah i was abit traumatised

i take my words back of not understanding why lil kids quit after they almost fall off a horse cos even me, this 15 year old me can get traumatised so i can imagine how scared they will be..

well anyway these two women were having a semi-private lesson next to us, which meant that it was 2 of them to one instructor.

i didnt see what happened because when the accident happened i was happily trotting with geofro (yes im so lucky i got geofro i swear)

then according to one of my classmates one of the women were cantering, the fastest pace a horse goes, and she let the reins go and she fell off, landed on her arm, bounced off the ground and landed one more time semi unconscious.

omg ouchhhhhhhhh.

i was abit shocked to see her lying motionless on the floor, like with her arm clearly broken ah. then the instructor put the leash on the horse and all of us in the other class just stopped our lesson for 5min while the ambulance came

then geofro the horse i was on got kinda jumpy when the ambulance came cos he is scared of flashing lights.. so yeah. i held on for dear life or i would be the next one in the ambulance :/

i had an average lesson that day, because geofro was definitely not at his best that day he kept trying to bolt on me so i had to yank on the reins to control him or i would go flying too..

but i think if there was a lesson to learn, it is that we humans are so fragile in the animal world. And that.. riding afterall is a pretty risky sport.

Swifty loves 2am

2011-03-14T17:49:00.001+08:00

”Lit through the darkness, at once 1:58” - Last Kiss

“It’s 2 am and I’m cursing your name” - That’s the way I loved you

”It’s 2 am, feeling like I just lost a friend” - Breathe

“I remember that fight, 2:30 am” - Mine

”2am, riding in your truck” - Mary’s Song

”2am, who do you love?” - Enchanted

and tuesday also

"I'm in the room its a typical TUESDAY night"- You Belong With Me

"Once upon a time, I believe It was TUESDAY when I caught your eye"- Forever And Always

MINDBLOWN.

it comes naturally

2011-03-12T18:12:00.002+08:00

why the sudden ballet pictures?

my teacher told all of us today that she has been assessing us and all of us are ready to start pointe.

YES YES YES YES YESSS OLAAA.

everyone was so happy today like omg please.

some of us have been dancing since they were 3.

i started when i was 3, total i have been dancing for 9 years excluding 2011 and pointe is like.. the climax of all this hard work. its the most advanced thing about ballet

holy shit.

this is big.

look at the last pic, the first pair of feet infront is what we have been doing for like umpteen years and then we are FINALLY going to go EN POINTE.

i actually kinda lost my interest in ballet this year cos i got too busy with school

but now it just reignited my passion LOL. so happy.

riding tomorrow, need to study vocab and grammar on my epic long journey :(

hope to be home in time to catch pirates of the caribbean!! i love orlando bloom and johnny depp and keira knightly :)

it will be a good fake holiday for me.

need to catch up on my sleep!!!!

please dont have somebody waiting on you

2011-03-10T16:28:00.001+08:00

i was enchanted to meet you, too.

another shot of whisky cant stop looking at the door

2011-03-10T15:12:00.003+08:00

how cool is this, you have never seen an artist take the time to teach you how THEY play the song!!

i love it when he plays along to the song its like the perfect ending omg.

im so inspired thats it i need a guitar!!!!

i love lady antebllum :D

theres something bout the way the street looks when it's just rained

2011-03-04T18:35:00.002+08:00

sports carnival = hottest day ever.

movie-d with lyc and julian, gnomeo and juliet! its so funny but some parts are sad :(

its finally friday omg.

holidays are coming, my much needed break.

i need to pull myself together, its not the end yet, i cant just break down and die halfway. its not even an option.

who am i

2011-03-03T16:13:00.002+08:00

identity crisis. i think i changed alot emotionally this year.

i shut people out, i dont tell anyone whats happening in my life anymore because i just dont want to. I dont want people to know about my weaknesses, i dont want people to know about my many problems, i dont want to expose myself to anyone including my friends. Even if they are there to listen to my problems, really, who cares anyway?

so many things happened lately that im just so sick of everything, and im angry at myself for not being able to handle stuff.

the only thing thats keeping me even alive is the thought of escaping singapore and going to perth during dec after o levels, i will just abandon twitter, facebook and even tumblr. I will shut everyone out for a month and survive and just purely enjoy myself without anything reminding me of life back here.

I really wanna leave, if i could leave right now trust me i would. I've reached the stage where i dont mind abandoning everything ive worked so hard for just to leave this place full of misery and alone-ss.

2011-03-02T20:45:00.000+08:00

i cant go f1. me and my absolutely stunningly amazing life.

im having a serious fml day.

2011-03-01T20:20:00.002+08:00

this is so freaking screwed.

i failed my first chinese paper 2 in 4 years today

oh well done yap jialin you have surely outdone yourself once again -.-

eff la. seriously taking higher chinese is the worst decision ive made in my entire life so far. Ive never regretted anything this much before. Can i just drop chinese completely like NOT even take mother tongue and screw chinese?

ive been through emotional ups and downs with chinese so much that im so sick of the language, the subject, everything about chinese just reeks of stress and makes me sick.

i see HCL on the timetable and i instantly wanna die already. Its getting worse and worse. I fail, fail fail. All i ever do is fail. Everyone can pass, i fail. I dont even effing get what the words are trying to convey anymore.

Once upon a time when my Chinese was good I knew that the storey that the words conveyed made sense and I could understand. Now, they make no sense. They are useless pictograms that just mean that im going to fail another subject, my mother tongue.

epic leh im so irritated and annoyed with chinese its hard to find a word to describe the situation.

and then english is another jackass just when i was gonna give up on eng i improve like BOOM suddenly I PASSED SUMMARY, I PASSED COMPRE. like wth miracle or what.

and first time i actually like got more than 17/30 for my compo also. amazing feat.

i hate chinese, i hate my chinese teacher, i hate everything that has to do with chinese. From now on i shall speak in english. no more chinese. yuck. euw.

tour de force

2011-02-24T20:21:00.003+08:00

You can't touch me now
There's no feeling left
If you think I'm coming back
Don't hold your breath
What you did to me
Boy I can't forget
If you think I'm coming back
Don't hold your breath

SOOOO long since i last blogged :(
im just like buried under everything that i had to do
been sick the last week, and its like whenever im gonna recover somehow i always end up deteriorating and becoming like more sick than i was before ._.

anyway had bio o level spa in school on monday, it was alright just that i was careless and did stuff i wasnt supposed to -.-!!!
but hopefully its okay..

gonna go orchard for like retail therapy tomorrow with fleurho(L)
then its ballet on saturday and mug date with teo on sunday
which im really looking forward to because i havent seen teo since the swift concert :(

and right now im so in love with this above song by nicole scherzinger and say hello to goodbye by shontelle. they are sooo meaningful, and theres nothing i love more than meaningful lyrics and a good love song.

haveta write an essay on WAITING. which is like abit no link but.. no choice. -.- i shall go find my inspiration.

im wonderstruck

2011-02-19T20:36:00.002+08:00

OMG IM SO EFFING HAPPY. I havent been so happy in a really long time actually :)

AFF THIS YEAR IS 13TH MAY TO 19TH MAY

GUESS WHAT.. THATS RIGHT AFTER MID YEAR EXAMS HELL YEAH I LOVE MYSELF SO MUCH!!!!!

omg im so haaaapppyyy la seriously.

i really wanna go back and volunteer another time, cos like i really had like, the best night last year while i volunteered.

it was a combination of nerves, starstuck-ness, craziness and just basically in awe that i got that chance.

im hoping i can apply and get in :)

please omg please let me get in. this is like, so important to me seriously,

marriage d'amour

2011-02-18T19:52:00.002+08:00

i hold this song close to my heart.

i heard it first when i was a kid cos my parents have this gigantic collection of classical music :/

and from then on it has been my ultimate favourite classical piece :D

so let me tell you about it.

i dont know why but its just a captivating song and trust me i usually cringe at the thought of classical music.

but this is like, dope. heh.

its compossed by this genius called Paul De Senneville :D

and played by as mentioned richard clayderman, and ever since it has been my epic favourite.

at least i feel i havent disappointed my mom :(

she made me and all of my sisters to learn piano but one by one all of us quit, so we kinda shattered her dream of seeing us play a complete classical song.

and since i really really really love this song to bits, i wanna master it for my own sake and then can like kinda let my mom enjoy 5min of her dream HAHA.

i learnt my right hand yesterday and memorised the notes because i dont know how to read the musical sheets, i stopped piano at grade 3 liddat and havent played for another like 5 years?? so i totally forgot everything about music already :s

now i regret sial i see audrey and fleurette play the piano like omfg so nice -slap myself for quitting-

nevermind at least can play my favourite song so not so bad, right?! :D

oh and its mummy's birthday today HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HER!!

got her flowers ytd and cabbed home from tampines with her cake just now..

made it at icing room, thanks to audrey and qingyun for helping me out cos it turned out really really nicely!!

2011-02-17T16:08:00.001+08:00

s on purpose tell me that theres an arsenal vs barcelona match, actually i know.
but god damn it i no football channel -.-

and i no f1 channel too -.-!!!!

so annoying :(

ready to love again

2011-02-13T01:26:00.003+08:00

its 1.34am and i just finished my tuition homework im so tired but im going to blog things out because things have been really tough lately.

the concert was the best night ever seriously i swear. Every cent is well spent! Jumped and sang to every song i knew, i basically kept turning and telling teo how this feels like a dream and how surreal it was. It still is. I woke up the next morning and checkd my arms to see the faded TAYLOR still scrawled across it, proof that i didnt dream everything. On a lighter note i bit my lip during love story wth right so now i have a lovely souvenir the ulcer from the concert.

well done.

photos are on facebook btw.

she started the concert with sparks fly and from the side view we saw her run behind the stage and we started the entire screaming frenzy!!! so annoyed @ the stupid aunties idk why they came to the concert. they dont even know her sat there the entire time playing with their phones

screw off, other people are stuck outside cos there are no more tickets and you are here! and they kept turning back and staring at me or blocking their ears when we scream pssh. only me and teo and two other angmors behind us were ENTHU like SIAO in the entire block. but ah well at least we had funn.

this morning i was damn upset about life cos like. its so boring and i dont have time to do things i like anymore..

but now im ok i guess, for now.

from now on im like a mega swift fan alr!!

after that i was like so depressed that my fun and games is over and its all work now haiz.

you paint me a blue sky

2011-02-10T22:46:00.002+08:00

it was money well spent every single sent i swear.

but its like im having my post-concert depression haiz so sad its over really

i looked forward to it for like how long already, so many months..

and its.. over.

omg i wanna cry wth -.-

me and yanting spent the entire day listening to swifty's songs on replay mode. i didnt listen to any other song at all i just kept replaying songs oh gosh i cant believe myself -.-

and shes off to korea now :(

we waited outside the area hoping to get a glimpse, like not autograph i dont need her autograph. I just wanna see taylor swift :( then she left in a blacked out van then we didnt know wth ._.

shall blog properly when im like.. more alive.

nanana come on

2011-02-06T13:14:00.002+08:00

stuck doing homework HAIZ.

differentiation test tomorrow am i dead or what lor seriously :'(

and ontop of tht theres also history test.

totally RIP.

just remembered had to do career research for bloody 4chan for oral presentation -.-

im doing it on criminology cos i think its quite interesting :D

theres so many things i like that when it comes to career im spoilt for choice :/ which is kinda weird because everyone else is all fumbling and trying to find their interests when mine are already lined up..

i wanted to do it on toxicology at first butttt i think criminology easier to talk about la. Its easier to talk about than fashion merchandising because its just, i dont really know how to explain that so just do criminology.

haiz this is just too sian

turf club riding centre

2011-02-05T13:53:00.002+08:00

the best thing i love about horse riding is learning how to deal with change of emotions.

horses like us, have emotions. They may be angry, frustrated, happy, or tired. As a rider, you have to deal with these emotions that they show and work as a team with the horse or you will never be able to ride properly.

it is basically the best thing that has ever happened to me.

cny resolutions.

2011-02-05T13:02:00.003+08:00

more day 2 pictures on fb!!
done with visiting already (yes omg im so dead tired)

im so useless my heels are like what 1-2 inches only and then i walk until got like 4-5 blisters on each foot -.-

what i did in heels:

walked from uncle's block to another relative's block
walk back
walked from suntec to marina including going up 3 flights of stairs
walked around river angpao
walked down tampines mall on non-moving escalators from cinema level to BASMENT 2.

i totally own. i got home and im like some limping chicken.

cousins forever :)

my cny resolution is simple.

be happy
stop eating SO MUCH bak kwa omg.
be hardworking like i used to be
be nice to people who deserve it *** important.
i am going to have a kickass year.

and i hate that i love you so

2011-02-04T01:16:00.002+08:00

CNY'11

no cny feel this year, missing my sisters so no feel :(
typical went ahyi's house and then went for movie with me 2 cousins and one future cousin in law.

oh so epic saw a maserati on the road so we were like going to take a photo (its like worth 500k hello?!?!)

then the driver caught us OMG so embarrassinggggg.
then julian sped off in our car then the engine roared so cool cos th car is a merz. heh.

day 2 tomorrow, yishun to visit the older relatives. means no sleeping in tomorrow begins early haiz.

ohoh but today saw baby chloe omg shes epic cute although she was sleeping when i arrived cos we went late :(

shes still so god damn adorable heh.

my personal life is... well to sum it up it sucks.
im getting shit from some people and its like they dont even bother so why care so much. sometimes i just think like why the hell am i the one thats like responsible for everything, for putting in all the effort when the other party can just get away with anything and everything.

so from now on its like im not going to talk to you and if you still want anything to do with me its time for you to do something.

long live

2011-01-30T12:30:00.002+08:00

i just found out we're gonna learn about venice in SS omg i love ss syllabus this year

its actually interesting for once

not like last year was just weird to learn. or rather because i didnt have no interest in LTTE or IRA.

its raining like mad, and has been this way for the past few days. my mood changes with the weather heh rain = shiok.

had tuition this morning omg i woke up at 8.30am on a sunday i think record timing for the last 2 years lor -.-

making pineapple tarts with parents at home later.

this week is going to be soo fun :D

monday must study for ss test which is last day of hard work

tuesday aft sch going with cuzzie to chinatown to get round 2 of junk food + BAK KWA YO.

wed - slack in school so shiok and then bowling with fleur drey and ting2. then stay up at night for tht shousui thing

thursday - HAHAHAHAHA CNY I HAVE WAITED FOR SO LONG.

friday - ah slak.

sat - dance cancelled, so another slack day.

ah i love the slackiness

AND THEN SWIFTY CONCERT COMING HEH im so happy.

2011-01-29T21:44:00.003+08:00

when you hear your favourite song you wanna dance to it.

you expect :

what actually happens:

HAHAHA
tumblr i love.

all i heard was nothing

2011-01-25T17:44:00.002+08:00

it cut me like a knife, when you walked out of my life.
maybe i should never have said anything
maybe things would be different
im starting to regret alot of things.
my first mistake was falling
my last mistake was going back again
my worst mistake was thinking i wont make the first mistake again.
so true haiz.

we ride

2011-01-23T21:10:00.003+08:00

passed beginners riding evaluation test, MOVING ON TO NOVICE 1 ON 20TH FEB HELL YEAH.
meanwhile i get a little break from cross country travelling to kranji every sunday.

im finally useful at something. oh thank god.

erjie sponsoring my jodhpurs and boots and gloves, omg right im so happy :)
thanks sis, dont know what i would do without you!!

no time to blog, gotta rush homework :(
shall update soon :)

you and i

2011-01-21T20:11:00.002+08:00

i love you and i by secondhand serenade and cady groves:)

its already friday omg time flies man. no time to update blog.tumblr

my poor tumblr is dead i love tumblr but i no time deal with it :(

time really flew by this week, i was sick on wed so sch was like so sian cos i was like half awake + really uncomfortable from indigestion -.-

went home early on wed and slept from like noon to dinner time, then bathe and then went back to pig till next morning and i felt like some energizer bunny already :D

so busy haiz. barely have time for anything now and its like only week 4 of sec 4 :(

this sunday is my last beginner riding lesson, i got geofro last week and he was like really tame and i worked well with him, got to do my rising trot and overall it was a good ride, i like.

im just happy i get to ride because not everyone has a passion, and im lucky to have one and to be able to do this i guess.

gonna finish SS tonight so i can like do my CNY shopping tomorrow and stuff.

maybe being busy is a good thing, i dont have time to stop and think, and to brood over things i should not spend time on.

i dont wanna think anymore

2011-01-18T20:40:00.002+08:00

haiz blog sorry for neglecting you

im so busy i feel like im neglecting everyone :(

ok haiz. this shall kinda fade out abit, sec 4 week 3 and im already like shit filled with so much homework -falls and dies-

and im only here when i need to complain -.-

im on the last strand of patience with my chinese teacher already any more shit and im going to write anonymous letter after i graduate to MOE HQ and well, i will let heaven deal with him.

im just so annoyed at him for discriminating us.

the diff between b3 and a2 is maximum like 5m right, and he keep nagging and nagging and like wtf seriously what you want me to do? its over what.

summore he still dare to say its over means its over we should "put it behind and move on"

then its like everyone never do chinese compo he only scold those with b3s

like im not upset anymore over the fact of a b3 because i already like went semi psycho tht few days, but like i just dont like the fact that he keeps bringing it up like its haunting us, you know?

like you tell us to get over it, why dont YOU get over the fact that WE got b3?

its like, we have feelings, and what do you have to lose if we get b3? nothing. its not your result slip leh its ours, it has our name on it. It doesnt credit you, and you also never mark and return our work how we learn? wth.

then he talk about victoria secret, like -.- bet he only watch cos of women in underwear which i despise him for doing like wth pervert go away.

he keep emphasizing that he has interest in fashion, but i bet he is just faking it just because you wear a ralph lauren shirt or wear a burberry shirt doesnt make you interested in fashion, it just shows you walked into their shop to buy their expensive shirt.

like pls do you even know who are the victoria secret angels? how about naming 10 supermodels? oh how about make tht 20 -.-

idiot poser i cant stand posers.

he seriously keep pushing my wrong buttons im damn pissed at him.

ive never been so pissed at a teacher before leh seriously. haiz

really wanna meet teo this week, i miss my teo and i have like a truckload of stuff to tell her alr :((((((((

and then games day ruin my shopping plan with fleurette ho like WTF right SIAN.

go now before its too late.

2011-01-12T19:34:00.003+08:00

why today is one of the most suay days in my life:

at 6.30am i stubbed my toe against the sharp table corner and it was like effing painful -.-
chinese teacher kept going on and on about how we are failures and that we are useless, wow i sure felt great -.-
audrey dropped higher chinese -dies-

seriously after today im so pissed and angry at my chinese teacher, what kinda teacher is he la. He told us that we got b3 and that we are bad and stuff and shit, and then kept emphasizing that we will NEVER be able to pass higher chinese -.-

now i feel like just passing it and throwing the cert in his face like in your face you asshole.

like haiz. chinese used to be like my best subject that never ever failed me

and this time it totally like spiraled downwards and hit rock bottom.

i refuse to drop not because i wanna chiong chinese or what, but i cant take it anymore

im so tired of everything

i dont want to retake oral, retake listening, retake all the papers and face my result what if i get a b3 again or what i think i will go commit suicide -.-

even if i do laugh and stuff in school, its actually still a burning thing inside :(

eff you chinese. you are a life ruiner.

and to my teacher, i will show you i can pass higher chinese without your help, I CAN DO THIS.

i dont know la i guess i just feel like crap.

life really is a bitch afterall.

im fighting for air

2011-01-10T21:25:00.002+08:00

go away if you are not ready for a emo post.

i cant take it leh. i cant do this.

i have never totally lost control and started crying

like i cried like as if someone bloody died.

like just like gasping between sobs and all, i cant accept it i see that numerical value THREE and i cry each time

like its effing killing me la.

its not just chinese, its like i feel like a fucking loser.

yes. a fucking loser.

its so unfair. seriously.

i wanna blame also must blame myself

who tell me, smart ass la pon chinese lor.

now see what you have done.

now everything is just like a blur.

today was a blur

i couldnt even believe it was happening

i dreamt once that i got 38/100 for chinese and in my dream i was crying like how i cried today.

its just too real :'(

and its not just about chinese

like, my parents are not strict on me because they dont believe in the complete strict thing

i just wanna get an a2, just an A to make them like happy, i want to just make them proud for once. why cant i even do that.

and it sucks even more because i effing mugged like siao and its just like, WTF IS THIS.

so yeah right now im one emotional ball of flesh.

i went home to stone, i cant even go out because im scared i will randomly outburst outside like omfg so embarrassing as if bursting out in school wasnt bad enough -.-

i hate crying infront of people because its like i dont like the attention, and so yeah you know how bad it was for me today for me to totally burst out.

after i got home i just mp3-ed and stoned and sat on the floor in one cosy corner of my house i cant move i cant do anything at the most reply sms-es to a few concerned people, and thank you guys i apprieciate it but theres really nothing you guys can do because you all cant help it if im a loser -.-

im like falling back into that cycle of depression when the stupid volleyball incident happened 2 years back, except this time its ten times worse.

oh and i crunched up the result slip and flung it against the wall at least twenty times.

yes it felt good but then i unscrunch the paper praying that the THREE will turn into a TWO but it is still a three, a cold, hard, 3.

fml. seriously fml. what the hell.

tumblr

2011-01-06T22:06:00.002+08:00

im gonna be happy, from now on.

2011-01-06T17:10:00.003+08:00

you think i wont make it?

you think i will starve?

even if i do, its my own choice.

i will get my degree and honours from lasalle and you can watch me get a job.

i will do whatever it takes,

i will fight.

and i will show you that all your doubts are unfounded.

end of story.

my most epic day ever

2011-01-05T14:30:00.003+08:00

today was too epic seriously.

played soccer during PE,

it was so fun.

although i fell in the grass, and my SHOE CAME OFF WHILE I KICKED THE BALL omg damn funny like everyone was laughing but i was also laughing heh.

for the rest of the day i just say the word shoe and people will laugh hahaha but who cares my flying shoe is cool ok. it takes skill to kick your shoe off :/

OH AND I MIRACULOUSLY SCORED 5 GOALS.

no link. i didnt know i could even kick a soccer ball properly :o

esp the first goal went in after siying went viva espana then i scored LOL so funny.

the entire PE was just so funny.

and aircon after PE = so shiok.

oh then came the suay part. my waterbottle leaked and my entire skirt was dripping wet and bottom of my bag also, so annoying now i must hunt for new waterbottle :'(

sigh. gotta chiong ss and then do maths and omg all the homework.

I HAVE TALENT FOR SOCCER HAHAHHA IM SO AMAZED :D

and im in love with this song.

bruno mars + natasha beddingfield + one of my favourite songs = so good.

never believed that things happen for a reason,
but how this turned out removed all my doubts
so believe that for you i'd do it all over again,
do it all over again.
All i went through, led me to you. So i'd do it all over again.

why oh why

2011-01-03T22:15:00.001+08:00

school reopening tomorrow. sian. seriously. omg. :(

i wanna take MC so bad.

ugh ugh ugh. seriously. URGHHH.

2011-01-02T01:31:00.001+08:00

Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

your guard is up and i know why

2011-01-01T18:26:00.002+08:00

back to december suddenly sounds so much more appealing when its january -.-

so this is me swallowing my pride

standing in front of you

saying im sorry for that night

and i'd go back to december all the time.

the only reason im excited for school is friends and my pair of new school shoes HAHA. everlast ftw. they should really everlast or i will be quite disappointed, im so broke thanks to them.

practically the most expensive pair of shoes i bought in my entire life leh T.T

have my riding lesson at kranji again tomorrow (omg kranji) 1.5h on the train hello -.-

then going home, bathe, then back down to orchard with mommy to accompany her to shop

like holy crap im going across singapore tomorrow :(

then monday is final chiong for homework (hell shit im so screwed right)

then 4th is HELLO EVERYONE WE'RE SEC FOURS.

well well well, the small itsy bitsy sec ones 4 years ago are now graduating aye. time really flew by, 4 years is nothing.

new year resolution?

be smarter.
work harder.
not be such a bitch
appreciate everyone more
earn money after o levels
do good during o levels
be a good girl :D
dont grow fat :/

and yes, i would go back to december all the time.

slowly swallowing down my fear

2010-12-31T22:56:00.003+08:00

2010, the year full of unexpected things, crazy, fulfilling, good, bad, everything in a mishmash.

the greatest thing i did this year was volunteering for audi fashion festival

night of my life, will never ever forget.

and not to forget, meeting henry holland at the fashion festival (!!!!)

this year was the year that i decided i will do whatever it takes to get a job in the fashion world.

i belong there, i want my place there, and i will fight.

i realised a new part of myself that i didnt know was inside of me when fell both in and out of love which was crazy.

i think within the last few of months of 2010 the turmoil that i went through i really grew alot, i feel just basically new and alot smarter in decision making. finally some accomplishment right!!

this year i went to like the hottest party, the launch of this marc jacobs fragrance! although it was boring cos we were obviously too young to be socialites, still had fun talking to fleurette :)

my sister got married this year!!!! (congrats to them, although it doesnt feel different cos i feel like my bro in law is alr part of the family!)

baby chloe, my cousin's really pretty daughter came a few days after my sister's wedding, and that was the first time i held a NEWBORN like 1 day old baby omg. thinking back, why was i so gutsy anyway?!

2011 here i come. i will hold you by the neck and make sure you are another kickass year :D

im already looking forward to taylor swift concert seriously heh.

this girl wants to rock with you

2010-12-30T22:30:00.003+08:00

im going to tell you about this song that has memories with it.

it was my very first english favourite song, and the very first taste of addiction to music. It was my drug when i was 7.

yes im proud to say i had good taste in music since i was 7 :p heh.

and then after that it was jewel's stand (cannot embed, so click this to watch)

heh i love old songs, provoke old memories :)

cant believe school is starting in so soon, and o level results are coming back

i had a bad dream, okay not A bad dream, is like 2 or 3 bad dreams about results. got once i dreamt i got 38/100 -.- then i was crying like some mad pig and cant breathe in my dream, so scary.

had class bbq yesterday it was so good i swear. partner think she so cute emptied ice cold bag of water ontop of my head down, like omg not a single portion of me was not wet. but ah screw it we all had fun.

oh and i ate raw chicken but i survived!!! was expecting some stomachache cos my immune system is like.. -.-

okay gonna go catch tv now, bachelorette on starworld :D

you got that something that keeps me so off balance

2010-12-26T21:26:00.002+08:00

hi yes thats yours truly at singapore turf club riding centre.

today was okay, although the instructor was kinda fierce :/

must be able to do rising trot until we can do it properly and then do it without the assistant leading us :(

as usual i got the same horse, bailey who is like 19 years old and damn lazy and like it wont move unless i seriously like kick it. even the assistant told me to just kick harder, cos it wont hurt LOL.

hmm other than that, i think i was quite comfortable i could do everything, and omg i can mount properly now (suprise suprise) its quite hard the first time last lesson, like i finally got on after 2 tries :/

cos its like so highhhh. your left foot is in the stirrup, which is like at chest level leh, then you like hop on the ground until you are in the right place and then swing up :s

BUT YEAH ITS SO GOOD. dude ive waited 8 years of my life to learn this, so i make use of every second and learn as much as i can :) kranji is seriously far from pasir ris, but yeah. IT SHALL BE WORTH IT.

teo came back last night, damn happy seriously. my teo is finally back :D

meeting her on 31st to exchange gifts and hopefully watch the tourist!!!

then theres 3e2 outing on tuesday, and 2e3 outing on wednesday, holy crap damn busy

i havent even finished homework yet lor sighhhhhh.

sorry for neglecting you, my dearest blog. But i really just dont have time to update as often anymore :( hopefully one day when i read back at what happened when i was 15, i wont have too little to remember!

riverdance

2010-12-25T21:03:00.001+08:00

when i watched riverdance at marina bay sands, i was blown away.

every drunk step i take leads me to her door

2010-12-24T17:46:00.002+08:00

omg i just realised i havent updated since sunday and its already friday :(

well siying came over on monday to stay, and we were damn glut eating like soo much food from the stupid pasar malam. Pasar malam spells trouble for me because im always like OH I WANT THIS AND I WANT THAT.

tuesday was drown in math day, math totally ruined my mood because i can barely do maths anymore. Seems like i totally forgot my entire sec 3 syllabus -.-

wednesday had dance and then, i cant remember.

thursday oh yeah yesterday. went to work for awhile and then bought textbooks in the afternoon (like finally.) and tried doing maths, to some success.

today was just math-ing and listening to the radio. Looking forward to christmas, because it means the best dinner ever :D

hello Shepard pie and lasagna!

you tossed it in the trash

2010-12-19T23:18:00.002+08:00

I LOVED TODAY.

omg i wated 8 years for today la.

had a safety briefing before we went into the riding arena (where YOG was held heh)

went through basic parts of the horse we must know, but i kinda know all already. I swear when i was younger i read every single article online about horses -.-

adjust stirrup, and then omg mounting the horse is like the hardest part la. must have the momentum and then swing up and make sure you dont kick the horse's ass :x

then put right foot into stirrup and hold the reins properly heh.

my horse was this 19 year old horse, and according to my personal assistant (we are all assigned one for safety and stuff), the horse is sooo lazy. it wont even move when i squeeze my legs la -.-

must lightly kick.

learnt how to start, stop, and steer the horse and then my assistant let the horse off the rein and i was still in control yay :D

then had to learn how to do the rising trot. First try was baaaaad i swear my ass was in deep pain -.- then after that i got the hang of it and my instructor said i was GOOOOD YAAAYYY -jumps with joy-

my assistant also said i did good and i could ride on my own LOL. I dont think so la, just in case i cant control the horse :/ but yeah ANYWAY I DID GOOD OKAY.

moral of the story : learn something with passion, and it can never go wrong.

cant wait for next sunday already!! parents gonna sit and watch me :/ heh no pressure, i can do this :)

its in the air and its all around

2010-12-18T18:36:00.003+08:00

so stressed. terribly stressed.

i see the neat pile of 2cm high math papers staring back at me and i feel like dying already -.-

im like trying to do the history project now but its like.. CRAP. I dont even know who the hell is brezhnev and cold war and im supposed to like go figure how he affected relations between USSR and US?!? Like urgh suddenly so dread everything.

lucky its just one page of research. I read wrongly and i remembered it as 4 pages omg. If its 4 pages i think by now i would be like tearing my hair out :/

ahh i just wanna get this stupid thing over and done with i have so many things to do!!

so little time, hai.

this year just flew by, scary how fast each day and each week just passed.

and little miss procrastination here hasnt done any homework omg. Rude awakening -.- Instead of doing homework im like listening to britney spears (???!!)

i totally lost my steam already la. I shall try and finish this and feel good for 5min and then go back to chionging :(

its taking me higher, higher.

2010-12-17T12:10:00.002+08:00

i really dont have much time to update my blog and tumblr :/

been sorting out souvenirs for my friends and basically just sorting things out at home i guess.

I HAVENT DONE ANY HOMEWORK. Im so wonderful -.- which is why im gonna go off and do homework now before school reopens i have to chiong urgh i hate chionging homework. Especially maths because you get stuck halfway for no reason and its so annoying.

will properly update and finish off my challenge when i have timee!

starting horse riding lessons this sunday too, omg so busyy.

turn it back

2010-12-03T12:28:00.002+08:00

13) Top 5 people I look up to/respect most

oldest sissy. shes gone through soo much and shes always so strong, its amazing.
i have a profound respect for anna wintour and her contribution to everyone's life. Whether you read vogue or not, her decisions will eventually affect everyone.
obama. dont laugh!! he is awesome, okay.
miranda kerr for staying true to herself even though shes some mega supermodel.
with all due respect, marc jacobs and his contribution to fashion.

14) 5 favourite things I own ( other than phone, and technology gadgets ok.)

my awesome wallet which has so much stuff in it im always wondering why it isnt exploding.
my hot pink school bag :s favourite colour :D
victoria's secret hoodie that sissy got me from US is sooo snuggly and comfy.
my bolster omg. it smells like me hahah.
my book collection is my pride and glory.

15) top 5 things you dont own but you want to

magic wand!!
a creative mind.
self confidence -.-
key to something.
perfect hair :(

going to korea tonight,

flying to shanghai and will transit until morning and then take a short 1h+ flight from shanghai to jeju island then start touring there and stuff.

then when im done in seoul i will fly to shanghai again then shanghai back to singapore :)

will be back on 12th december at night, so yeah. Until then, if i can update my blog i will update it, but if not then no. Im sure theres internet, just that i feel like cutting myself off from the world for awhile and just go there without any emotional baggage.

hell yeah.

until i find internet in korea,

XOXO!

riverdance farewell tour

2010-12-01T00:04:00.002+08:00

RIVER DANCE FAREWELL TOUR PERFORMANCE AT MARINA BAY SANDS THEATRE WAS EFFING AMAZING CAN.

IM SO STOKED.

and i dont really appreciate that arts, so yeah. for me to say this they have to be that good.

and yes, they are THAT good.

I WATCHED THAT LIVE.

its so different, the audience feels every beat, you hear the music, its so real, they are just there infront of you, dancing. its the best experience ever.

I am like gobsmacked at how good it was, seriously. Im just sad that it was their farewell tour, like its the first and last show of riverdance im ever gonna watch live :(

but its okay, theres always DVD! (which im going to watch later, omg can.)

riverdance ftw. its so cool.

slipping through my fingers

2010-11-30T18:07:00.002+08:00

watching riverdance at marina bay sands later hell yeah im excited 8D

we have top class tickets MUHAH.

11) 5 favourite books

Princess Masako, prisoner of the chrysanthemum throne. (im almost finishing it, and its really good. insight on the not so easy life of being the crown princess of japan)
My Best Friend's Girl, its so good!!
P.S. I Love You. So sad :( draggy sometimes but its good other than that.
twilight. not new moon, not eclipse, not breaking dawn, but twilight by itself was already a really good book. The movie didnt live up to it, sigh. And robert pattinson is just.. sad.
i cant think of anymore :l will update if i know anymore heh.

12) 5 favourite TV shows

gossip girl. my life man this show. i live, breathe and dream gossip girl.
project runway!!
CSI is so badass. I love.
The Tudors

like im the only one that you'll ever love

2010-11-28T13:37:00.005+08:00

now back to the challenge i forgot to do yesterday.

9) Top 5 Style Icons

Blair Walforf / Leighton Meester hands down.
Bee Shaffer (anna wintour's daughter. Shes always looking posh and polished.)
Kate Moss!! I dont like kate moss but i like her style :l
Taylor Swift (believe it or not, she really can pick out clothes nicely.)
Lauren conrad :D

10) 5 favourite pictures

this is coco rocha in the esprit campaign, ive always respected the fact that it isnt easy to shoot and direct an advertising campaign, but it's even harder to model in one. Coco rocha just does it with so much poise and elegance, i like. Shes outshining the male model la srsly.

gossip girl is a big part of my life, and chuck and blair is amazing. I want my own chuck someday!!!!!

always had a fascination with the eiffel tower, and well this vintage looking photo with the eiffel tower and balloons is like my favourite pic ever. Has 3 of my favourite elements : vintage, colour, eiffel tower.

Natalie Dormer as Anne Boleyn. I love love love the tudors and everything tudor. Weirdly I like renaissance stuff. Anne boleyn's story is just tragic :(

reminds me to be myself and to be happy. at all times :)

i keep dreaming

2010-11-27T23:25:00.002+08:00

im so, so, so, happy.

sissy came back, im just so happy and glad that one gigantic pillar of my life is back for awhile, and that i can just spend some sister time with her.

I feel like, i can finally breathe and live normally like my previous very normal life without all this drama and crap thats happening, you know? Im like slowly finding jialin again, im slowly becoming the person that i lost when all this crap happened to me..

which is why going to korea is so important to me, not only cos of shopping, but i wanna do some self searching, like find myself, be myself, just be in the moment and enjoy the snow and enjoy the country. Even if theres internet, i wont be on msn/facebook cause I wanna cut myself off from the world and just be myself for awhile..

im forever thankful for my sisters and parents. they are the best support group i have around, and i just love them all to bits :)

went shopping w sissy today, carried all her bags for her heh. exercise la k. then had dinner at this posh restaurant (which is like sooo into natural-healthy food) which is weird cos im so unhealthy.. the only "normal" drink they had was rosella juice?! i actually drank that -.-

because all the other drinks are just.. herbal and weird. :l

and my awesome sister raided poh kim of all the discs hahaha spam buy!! I bought Goong princess hours DVD, my all time favourite show. Damn sad la!

and she bought queen seon duk also 8D

HELLO NOW I CAN MARATHON PROPERLY.

the disc from malaysia is just.. terrible quality -.-

happy day, i really really felt at ease and normal again for awhile. Even if it was for hours, im happy. Im finally happy. For awhile, but still.

I really hope korea doesnt break out in war, i really need to go somewhere, anywhere but here and just get out and go. pray for me everyone!

off to snack and watch QSD, as mentioned above. If i dont really blog its because im busy out aye.

and thank heaven again, for my wonderful sis. I love you so much.

Que Sera Sera

2010-11-26T14:30:00.002+08:00

drop everything now,

meet me in the pouring rain.

kiss me on the sidewalk

take away the pain

cos i see sparks fly whenever you smileeeeeeee

TAYLOR SWIFT FEVER HELLO! :D

8) 5 favourite words

je'taime.
perplexed
ming-boggling (omg this 5 word thing is hard ._.)
chatoyancy (me like.)
halcyon.

not that i will ever use those words, just that they are randomly my 5 favourite :l

didnt go out today afterall, and im actually pretty happy about that.

so.damn.tired.

and thanks teoyanting for giving me taylor swift's album, i love i love :D

speak now

2010-11-25T19:29:00.002+08:00

if i were a boy, even just for a day

i'd roll outta bed in the morning

and throw on what i wanted and go.

drink beer with the guys,

and chase after girls.

if i were a boy, i think i could understand

how it feels to love a girl,

i swear i'd be a better man.

i'd listen to her,

cos i know how it hurts.

if i were a boy suddenly makes alot of sense keeps running through my head today.

thanks teo for the speak now cd (i almost bought it on 2 occasions but idk why i just felt like i shouldnt)

heh. telepathy uh.

now i can send all the tracks to my phone heheheh.

7) 5 favourite movies of all time

The Dutchess
Mean Girls
White Chicks
The Other Boleyn Girl
Marie Antionette

i swear by these movies.

you stood there infront of me

2010-11-24T19:00:00.002+08:00

omg. im suddenly so hungry :(

5) 5 favourite horror movies

(i dont watch horror)

the only horror show i watched was saw 5, and its just pure disgusting to watch -.-

6) 5 favourite comedies

WHITE CHICKS, HANDS DOWN.
The Ugly Truth!!
date night.
grown ups
madagascar (omg gloria the hippo is so funny)

did nothing much today, think i finally found a job (??) waiting for the person to reply :D

finally, some INCOME.

ive been spending like some crazy bitch these few days -.- sigh.

and top model is just crazy.

tyra really revamped the entire show.

they get to walk for anna sui, zac posen, model in clothes by marc jacobs, vera wang, alexander wang, john galliano omg.

you, you.

2010-11-24T00:43:00.003+08:00

i love tonight by enrique iglesias omg.

its so damn catchy, heard it on AMAs i was watching last night

heres the situationbeen to every nation

nobodys ever made me feel the way that you do

you know my motivation, given my reputation

please excuse me i dont mean to be rude,

but tonight im loving you!!!!

(yes i saw its actually meant to be f----ing you, but i like the clean version because effing you sounds just, sick.)

no job. no money.

well done jialin, well done.

summore i bought heels from new look

not that im gonna wear them, cos they are the epitome of "killer heels"

sigh. i wish for a money tree.

3) 5 favourite music artists

rihanna
daughtry
enrique iglesias yo.
shontelle
katy perry!!

4) 5 favourite songs

right now? hmm

blow, kesha.
tonight, enrique iglesias
every breath, boyce avenue
speak now, taylor swift
the flood, cheryl cole.

baby, i like it.

2010-11-22T23:46:00.002+08:00

I LOVE THIS PERFORMANCE!!
2:23 TAYLOR SWIFT SINGING LOL SO CUTE.
BABY I LIKE IT!!
this song is such a feel good song heh.

anyway, I BOUGHT TAYLOR SWIFT TICKETS MUHAHAHA.
teo, you are my concert buddy for life.

you'll be the only light i see

2010-11-22T14:22:00.002+08:00

i am so in love with every breath by boyce avenue -2 thumbs up-

Cause when I needed a place to hang my heart
You were there to wear it from the start
And with every breath of me, you'll be the only light I see

so nice omg.

great, now i have like 4 songs on replay mode

heartbeat - enrique + nicole, the flood- cheryl cole, terrified- katherine mcphee and every breath.

oh yeah ive learnt how to be smart this year. I am like not gonna do my homework until last minute because im gonna play :D

because in sec 1 and 2 by the time i finished my homework i didnt even really get to play -.-

DAY 2 : 5 FAVOURITE ACTORS.

Tom Cruise. i love tom cruise.
Gerard Butler "this is sparta" heh. i got forced into watching 300 twice with my sis :l
Orlando Bloom!! lord of the rings omg. im very influenced by my sis -.- plus he is miranda kerr's husband so thats a bonus point for him.
JOHNNY DEPP! pirates of the carribean and willy wonka :D
tom hanks, definitelyy. Forrest Gump will forever remain as one of my favourite movies, and the terminal is among the list of favourites too :)

hate that i love you.

2010-11-21T13:39:00.002+08:00

whats with me and duets

i love no air, hate that i love you, terrified. Spam replay them :l

especially hate that i love you. the lyrics are just indescribably good.

nothing much to update, since my life is basically nothing much right now

or rather, im feeling nothing much right now.

my blog posts get shorter and shorter, sigh. i need one of those challenges to keep this alive.

5 favourite actresses
1) Amanda Seyfried
2) Emma Watson
3) Rachel McAdams (omg mean girls + note book = earnt my respect)
4) Katherine Heigl (watched almost all her movies, and all are so funny.)
5) Leighton Meester (gossip girl ftw.)

2010-11-21T00:58:00.002+08:00

you're hot then you're cold

you're yes then you're no.

you're in then you're out

you're up then you're down.

flood of love

2010-11-19T22:13:00.002+08:00

But you can't hold on to water
It fills you up but never stays
It's only good to wash away, today
And your loving me like water
Your slippin' through my fingers such
A natural disaster love
Bringing on the flood, the flood
Love me like a flood, a flood
Bring it on

by the stars

2010-11-18T18:07:00.002+08:00

omg i just cant get over heartbeat by enrique iglesias and nicole scherzinger!

and its been like so so so long since i heard it and i just love it to bits :D

stop stealing my heart away~ best lyrics too, ah everything about that song is just so good.

soundtrack of my life heh.

and nicole scherzinger is just.. ive loved her from pussycat dolls days till now. so yeah :D

this week has been like full on movie marathon + lazing around + slack week.

movie after movie.

watched like mean girls, knocked up, dark knight, lovely bones, harry potter and the half blood prince, scary movie 1, knight and day, and like 4 or 5 episodes of project runway.

gonna continue later omg.

im like such a pig. i eat and eat and eat so much :s

meeting linah, siying, eliasha and julian tmr for harry potter!!!

all of us are so excited and im excited too heh.

holidays are awesome.

stupid junior.

2010-11-17T22:06:00.003+08:00

omg okay. you know that challenge i did back then?
the 10 day challenge?

well i left out something i hate.
i hate kpop.
i cant stand kpop.
everything about kpop irks me.
its so cheesy -.-

and the worst thing is,
ITS TAKING OVER CHANNEL V OMG NO.
like i watching top 20 charts halfway, all english songs
all suddenly number 7 is bonamana
and im like wtf?!?!?!! -dies-

whats happening to the world, omg!!

forever and ever

2010-11-17T12:11:00.002+08:00

my dad finally drilled in my two posters
my beloved eiffel tower and vogue posters omg.
i stare at them for awhile before i fall asleep :D heh.

even if

2010-11-16T19:35:00.003+08:00

tumblr is awesome.

right now im loving my old old old ancient favourite song

someone's watching over me - hilary duff

so i wont give up,
no i wont break down.
sooner than it seems life turns around.
and i will be strong, even if it all goes wrong.
when im standing in the dark i'll still believe,
someone's watching over me.

lazy day at home, watched mean girls + knocked up and fell asleep during knocked up because i already watched it once :l

dark knight + harry potter 6 later :D
im awesome.

i'd come for you

2010-11-15T00:17:00.001+08:00

nickelback, i love.

barely breathing

2010-11-14T12:10:00.002+08:00

i have my blair coat to bring to korea 8D

trench coats are so god damn cool.

finally getting excited about korea!!!!

need to watch k-dramas to make me more excited man.

my parents spent $244 at uniqlo last night, so crazy.

but we cant trump my sis and bro in law's record of $400+ anyway :D

my family deserves like some golden VIP card from uniqlo

actually im not a fan and i dont really wear uniqlo, its that my parents bought alot!!!

and like one jacket is alr like around 50 so 244 we spent on only 10 items :/ some cheap, some ex.

going out again today, going to find nice leather gloves or my fingers will like freeze and drop off or something when its snowinggg. I wanted to buy the gloves from wintertime at $45 (i have 20 dollar voucher, so its $25) but then i wanted taylor swift album also which is $21.95 i think?

but the album is singapore edition ee i want the international edition!!!!! grr.

annoying. i want all my albums i lazy download la. download lifehouse and daughtry until im half dead -.-

if we're going to the og near chinatown i think can drink koi!!!! :D

(my first experience was a disaster, i chose 25% sugar and the whole drink tasted like shit)

hopefully (if i go today) it will be goooood heh.

so long!

why do i care about you anyway?

written in the stars

2010-11-13T14:14:00.002+08:00

"seasons come and go, but i will never change."- so true.

today will be a good day. i know it will, and i will make it be a good day.

fall winter ready to wear

2010-11-12T12:57:00.001+08:00

HI I WANT THAT DRESS.
watching gossip girl yesterday
omg blake lively/serena van der woodsen blew me away.

she even trumped blair because i like the gown :D
wait, i dont even know if it counts as a gown but ah who cares.

its so prettyyy.

watching megamind later with siying :D

roll with us

2010-11-11T17:38:00.002+08:00

RIGHT NOW, I FEEL SO FLY LIKE A G6 ;D

yesterday it was p diddy. HAHAH.

so funny.

grey contacts are like funny-looking :(

feels funny though. it slides ABIT around the black part of my eye, and when it blocks the pupil then i can see abit of like sth blocking :/

weird.

hope they are okay though, its fun being grey eyed :D

ive got the magic in me

2010-11-10T23:50:00.002+08:00

DAY 10: Final 10 words

I am so tired and i really wanna go sleep :D

chinese was idk how to say.

no one did sihan, i chose sihan cos i panic-ed and i blanked out and dont dare do gonghan cos i very long never write.

so i anyhow crap for sihan. omg.

did baozhangbaodao, think i did okay? i dont know my reasoning sucks when im so nervous!!

paper 2 was okay except for some parts, which is like so ??!!?!

but its over. ITS OVER.

so scary omg o levels is no joke.

gonna go sleep now

tomorrow's 11.11.10!!!

gonna make my wish in the morning at 11:11am :D

i will survive.

2010-11-09T14:44:00.004+08:00

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i know by now all of you are sick of me using the eiffel as like the post picture, but i dont care ok. i love my eiffel tower :D

taking my 8min break to chillax for awhile before i head back to mugging chinese
ive already like hardcore memorised all the cheeem phrases, fingers crossed i can get my a1 so i can give up one other subj (preferably maths ahem.)

pleasepleaseplease let tomorrow be okay, im like so scared already :(

saying things we havent for awhile, yeah.

2010-11-08T13:40:00.002+08:00

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DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart

be nice, be yourself? this one abit foolproof right ._.
bribe me with food 8D recommended : macarons, anything sweet. i have a weakness for fooood!!
typical, flowers lor. i love flowers anyway :D
dont be mean, mean is just evil. evil is baaad.
dont stalk, thats scary.
dont like do crazy stuff infront of everyone because thats damn embarrassing :s
write cute little letters :D
make me laugh? i dont know man.
fine i say it, romantic. okay who doesnt want right?!
accept me for who i am, im not changing for anyone.

IM SO WORRIED ABOUT CHINESE I CAN DIE RIGHT NOW.

so sick with fear, feel my stomach all twisted -.-

and the best thing is, its not even tomorrow.

the only thought that keeps me going is that it wont be as bad as oral, because oral was like face 2 face with 2 scary teachers and you talk.

this one is just write, write, write, understand, write, write, write.

wish me luck man :( if i get a1 i can give up one of my other subjects >:D

this is my chance to get rid of amaths, you sneaky lil ass.

wont be blogging tomorrow unless i really have gone mad, which is like highly possible considering right now im already freaking outtttt.

feels so good being bad

2010-11-07T12:01:00.003+08:00

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DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

DAY 8: 10 OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS.

i will list my all time favourites, omg this is going to be hard. i have like 600 songs in my library :/

once by diana vickers
broken arrow by pixie lott
the man who cant be moved by the script
ghost by fefe dobson
life after you by daughtry
rehab by rihanna
running back by jessica mauboy
i kissed a girl by katy perry (classic. i love.)
sleepwalker by adam lambert
heartbeat by enrique iglesias ft nicole scherzinger
i like by keri hilson (i know 10 already but i really cannot kick anymore songs out!!)

they have survived my constant replaying and i still lovelovelove them after listening for so long :D

watching harry potter on channel 5 now yay. its raining, its cold, the lights are off, and for the first time in a long long time I CAN WATCH TV WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE. ftw.

school tomorrow :(

i remember every word you said

2010-11-07T00:55:00.001+08:00

"We used to talk until forever on some nights. We used to just laugh at the stupidest things together. You used to tell me things no one else knew cause you knew I wouldn’t say anything. We loved being with each other. That’s the problem, “We used to.” But now I don’t seem to exist. I’d get a hey from time to time. And at times when I know you’re hurting I wanna be there for you but we’ve fallen to far from each other."

forgetting to forget about you.

2010-11-06T23:17:00.002+08:00

DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

I CANT CHOOSE 10 PEOPLE.

1) my entire family, i love all of you so much. Without all of you, i am nothing and wouldnt be who i am today. I built myself from all of you, so thank you :D

2) my friends, all of you, you know who you are. For always being there, for loving me for who I am, for not judging, for never leaving me in the dark, for just being yourself. I love all of you too, and cant imagine my school life/general life without all of you. I may have many of you, but i treasure all of you all the same and would never think of leaving any of you behind after graduation. Especially all of you girls, we are not friends, we are sisters. And sisters are for life.

3) anna wintour. vogue = fashion bible = my entire dream.

4) marc jacobs. my first and forever will be my favourite designer, you are like the shining source of inspiration.

5) henry holland. meeting him was like some dream come true. Quirky clothes are so cool :D

6) blair waldorf, okay i sound stupid for idolizing some character, but honestly she is like so classy sometimes that it just makes me think like i should not swear and all and be classy. afterall, classy beats trashy right.

7) lady gaga. your songs accompanied me throughout countless maths assignments.

8) daughtry. epic band. can never ever live without daughtry songs. daughtry ftw.

9) miranda kerrrr. i love how she doesnt lose her personality even though shes so famous. I love everything about how sweet she is, i think shes just everything i wanna be.

10) him :(

forgetting to forget about you.

chorus applies to my life right now.

"cos i remember every word that you said

it all just keeps spinning around in my head

but it dont matter what i try to do

i keep on forgetting to forget about you"

i just cant let go, and i wont. if i do, i will go all berzerk on myself.

so yeah i dont know what im doing anymore

i dont know if you mean what you said

after you said you were good at acting,

i dont know if you were acting

i dont know if acting equates to lying

i dont know anything anymore.

i dont know if i mean anything to you at all

i dont know i dont know i dont know.

im always the one talking

you never start anything

what happened to my 'best friend'?

sigh.

i wave my white flag.

i will be waiting for the day you finally text me first.

or maybe that day wont come at all..

stop it jialin. stop it. :/

whats happening to me.

this is killing me

2010-11-05T23:28:00.001+08:00

mistakes

2010-11-05T22:58:00.000+08:00

My first mistake was loving you
My worst mistake was giving you a second chance
Cuz you tore me up and you called it love, you made a fool out of me
My last mistake was thinking I won't make the same mistake again

nicest song ever.

we took too many shots

2010-11-05T14:23:00.003+08:00

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DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without

phone.
starhub cable teevee :D
my sexy, shiny pink vaio laptop, obviously right.
aircon :( or at least fan la, i cant stand heat!
chinese dictionary, without it i will get 0 for chinese because i am like so horrible at remembering how to write the words ._.
macarons and sushi. i live to eat :D
camera! afterall, i like capturing moments :)
my patrick soft toy.
bed.
mirror. try going a day without looking in the mirror ah!

boring day, gonna go off now to study chinese :(
wo bu yao du shu :(
sighhhhhhh.

MTV EMA 2010

2010-11-04T20:42:00.003+08:00

i just voted for MTV EMA 2010 :D

heres my vote:

best song - love the way you lie

best live act - lady gaga

best pop - katy perry

best new act - KESHAAA

best female - katy perry (lady gaga won alot already, let this girl have a chance can. and rihanna, im sorry for backstabbing you, who tell you release your album so late huh!!)

best male - enrique iglesias

best hip top - T.I. (i dont listen to hip hop, but aiya whatever just pick TI la)

best rock - kings of leon (omg i wanted to vote muse but aiya i like KOL better :D)

best alternative - paramore, baby.

best push act - alexandra burke (shes awesome, need some recognition helloo)

best world stage performance - TOKIO HOTEL. ( i love )

best european act - enrique iglesias

meet me halfway

2010-11-04T13:20:00.003+08:00

i promise myself, one day i will conquer paris and the eiffel tower :D

DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person

TO: MY MOM :D

1) as usual, thanks for always being my mama, even though i know im not a very good kid

2) thanks for always believing in me, no matter what I do.

3) thanks for being so understanding all the time

4) thank you for letting me grow into the girl i am now, i owe everything to you.

5) i will be a good girl and do well for chinese

6) i will work my ass off for amaths, but whether it pays off or not highly depends on the paper ._.

7) you taught me how to be myself, how to have your own character, how to be uniquely me and no one else, thats something that i will forever be grateful for :)

8) i think you will be a good amaths teacher for me next year :D

9) stop saying you're ugly because you definitely are NOT!!

10) i love you mama :D

DAY 5: 10 wishes

1) i wish i were a boy.

2) i wish i would be more hardworking

3) i wish my life would be perfect with no problems :l

4) i wish all of my friends would always be around me

5) i wish all of my family would be together under one roof

6) i wish to get my dream job as merchandiser one day

7) i wish to get a1 for chinese -.-

8) i wish to travel, to visit new york, milan, tokyo and paris one dayyyy

9) i wish that i didnt need to worry about _______

10) i wish that all this didnt happen to me.

you know we're superstars

2010-11-03T20:22:00.001+08:00

i dont like myself anymore :(

you and me against the world.

2010-11-02T16:33:00.006+08:00

DAY 3: 10 things you hate
DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

DAY 3: 10 things you hate

i hate kpop. i used to like it, but then it got stupid. like, you dont get what they are singing, the singers are all so plastic, and its just all weird and wrong for me :/
justin bieber. ironic cos i listen to his songs but yeah i still dont like him.
amaths. i hate amaths, i dont get it, i cant do it, i hate all the assignments+work that comes with it, its burdening me :(
insects and frogs and snakes. gross. gross. gross. i used to LOVEEEE snakes because they were creepy but i grew out of snakes, now they are just hard on gross.
slow computers, i hate slow computers. so useless and i just click the google chrome button like 10 million times and 10 minutes later the 10 million google chrome browsers open and the computer dies. so yes, thts totally unnecessary :D
people who doubt me and put me down. its annoying when people question your actions/dreams/aspirations and think its stupid because its just plain rude and immature, have some respect pls!
show-offs and overly vain people. i dont know it just comes off as you are trying too hard and you want the attention, so i wont give you my attention :)
pickles, garlic, asparagus, onions, olives, avocado. i dont likeeeeee, they taste weird/funny/plastic-y :s
i hate it when my msn screws up and like shows me offline but listening to a song (like ??!?!)
i hate mark webber and ferrari :) vodafone mclaren mercedes ftw :D

stars in my eyes

2010-11-01T13:31:00.002+08:00

DAY 1: 10 things about you
DAY 2: 10 things you love
DAY 3: 10 things you hate
DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

DAY 2: 10 THINGS YOU LOVE

1) all things pink, it has been my favourite colour for as long as i knew what colours were :D

2) food from all countries! (except spicy things)

3) flowers. i dont know why. they're pretty. i like flowers!

4) history. Its actually pretty interesting, watching history repeat itself~

5) music, i cant go a day without music.

6) sleeping, im a sleepaholic, although i cant fall asleep easily especially when theres something on my mind or im worrying about something or thinking about something

7) gossip girl, project runway, top model and CSI are entertainment must-haves or my life would be so sad :(

8) my family, i love all of you.

9) my circle of friends, i would never be the same without each and every one of you.

10) him. If i hadn't told you, maybe we would still be talking as often :(

my ten day challenge

2010-10-31T23:06:00.002+08:00

DAY 1: 10 things about you
DAY 2: 10 things you love
DAY 3: 10 things you hate
DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

ten things about me

1) im kinda straight to the point, because i dont like beating around the bush

2) i love my n97 mini despite all the attitude problems she has :D

3) i name some of my belongings so that its easier to refer to them :/

4) im generally a happy person!

5) i will die without music

6) every night i sleep on my super-single sized bed :D

7) im not very tolerant of the cold :(

8) i dont like being 'tall' because 1.68 isnt considered tall, but it aint short either :l

9) my best subject is bio and my worst is amaths -.-

10) its not easy to win me over.

i miss everything about you.

2010-10-31T14:35:00.002+08:00

this is actually interesting/funny haha i found it on tumblr :D

yes i fell into the trap im now on tumblr as well -.-

withlovejialin.tumblr.com

but i'll be on blogger as well.

i have too many things to talk here so i might talk about some things on tumblr :s

does tht even make sense? :l

but yeah im like so lazy to type everything on my mind out because

i dont know who might be reading (which is kinda scary)
im generally lazy.
people i dont want to know might be reading this.

so yeah i prefer talking to my friends anyway :D

boring/lazy halloween sunday. not doing anything :(

wanted to go escape with siying and lycia and eliasha and (did julian go?!) but i had my fashion show at ion to watch :(

chinese o levels srsly freaking me out, i tried doing the ten year series and omg i only got like 5/10 MCQ correct -.-

ftw jialin, ftw.

just like the world is ours.

2010-10-30T22:14:00.003+08:00

gossip girl made me cry :(

going to watch he's just not that into you now and if im still awake maybe attempt to watch forgetting sarah marshall.

chick flick marathon, helps me escape the world for a few hours straight! :D

xoxo.

and i wonder if i ever cross your mind, for me happens all the time

2010-10-30T10:20:00.002+08:00

its a quarter after one

im all alone and i need you nowwwwwww.

said i wont call but i lost all control

and i need you nowww.

and i dont know how i can do without,

i just need you now.

lady antebellum's need you now :D (no connection with gaga whatsoever)

love this song right now, i like listening to old songs heh.

love running back right now too, it is one of the favourites of the favourites of my songs :D

my other favourites are two songs from the script, boy who murdered love and once by diana vickers and ghost by fefe dobson.

they never get old, thats the best thing.

and they all have nice lyrics.

but i cant move on, cause that means forgetting, forgetting everything we had.

instead i keep running i keep running i keep coming back

cos i keep forgetting you treat me so bad

so i keep on coming i keep coming back.

i keep coming back.

i keep running back.

style week fashion show at ion later, boy im excited.

next time if i really get a job as a merchandiser, this will be part of my daily job 8D

we are who we are

2010-10-29T18:41:00.003+08:00

so tired i fell asleep during chem and then got slapped awake by tingting :(

and would you believe it i won invites to style week fashion show at ion orchard tmr?!?!

im too tired to express my excitement right now. :D

i was watching the show last year with erjie behind the gates, and i made a silent oath to myself that one day i will be sitting inside, but never did i ever think that i would make it inside one year later?!?!

blog later toooo tired now sigh.

the way you move on the floor

2010-10-28T18:00:00.002+08:00

marc jacobs party = so freaking boring.

filled with rich, fabulous people and you cant find a single person that is NOT holding a branded bag. Lucky i brought my marc jacobs tote or i would like feel so out of place. Although fleur insisted that everyone was staring at us (no they were not, shes just being paranoid) i think we are not cut out to be socialites.

her 4 inch heels she lent me killed my feet like seriously when i finally took them off and changed to flats in the toilet i could feel the ball of my feet being in like serious pain -.-

boring like crazy, i think it would be fun if like i were older and i wanted to like get more contacts/networking/socialize. But hey we are 15 year old students and you want us to start talking to like adults?!

the only famous person we saw was hossan leong :l and then i saw nat ho at the toilet!! AND HE SMILED AT ME. not that i like him la, just that nat ho smiled and that means he's pretty nice. heh.

but other than that my life went back to normal as soon as i got on the train and stuff.

bridging programme tomorrow, i feel like dying seriouslyyyyyy.

chinese o levels on 10th november, i am like ready to die already :(

my chinese is totally cannot-make-it standard.

anyway not too happy with my report book because i de-proved since midyear :(

but yeah i will work hard next year, i want my bursasry!!!

meanwhile i need to worry about what the heck im going to do during bridging programme because its so damn sian seriously. like lessons start at 7am?!?!

thats worse than normal sch day because i have to be in sch by 7.15 but this is like.. 15 min earlier :'(

first up tomorrow, bio -.- then, english, omg. words cant even express the sian-ness im feeling right now :(

keep telling myself that its not worth it

2010-10-26T22:12:00.003+08:00

i know i dont deserve it, but ive learnt to love the fall.

marc jacobs party tomorrow, awesome shiz. im like starting my socializing life at 15 yo. hahha.

i have everything i could ever need except one thing. But then again, i would give up everything for that one thing. Im stupid, i wanna kick myself, i wanna tell myself to snap out of this but I cant no matter how hard I try. I fell too deep.

this cool tumblr blog has like soo many good quotes

here are the top few i love/can relate to/totally know/fully understand

I stay up every night hoping that maybe one day, you’ll come to your senses. And every morning when I check my phone, my heart gets a little more broken.

Sometimes, I really wonder what exactly happened to us. Yes, us.

Things happen, people change. I know we’re supposed to just let it go and move on, but what if you can’t?
Even after everything you’ve put me through, my heart still holds onto that tiny glimmer of hope that you’ll finally put some actions to your words - that you’ll realize what you lost and come back and fight for me like I’ve always fought for you.

she kissed a girl and woke up in vegas

2010-10-26T14:21:00.002+08:00

IT WAS KATY PERRY'S BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY :D

i love k.p. :D

im like stuck on her song, the one that got away. her album is the best download i have made this year so far ahh. I dont download albums, but only for my favourite artists yay!

In another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

love this song, and still hooked on pixie lott's broken arrow and heartbeat by enrique inglesias and nicole scherzinger :D

boring day. collecting report book tomorrow :(

dont wanna see la, haiyo.

going out with fleur and audrey tomorrow aft everything though. Dont wanna come home, my parents are like being all emo and pissy with life, and its making me pissed as well, so yes. less me = less friction.

like i srsly think they becoming abit forgetful i told them i eating outside for lunch, and when my dad asked i said no, and then now they scold me say what i told them that i was coming home for lunch and im like wth?!

then my dad accused me of lying to his face, so yeah. whatever. think what you wanna think, i know i didnt do anything wrong, so yes. :D

wont let anything affect my mood from now on, i like being happy. not sad :)

i could belong to the night

2010-10-25T20:42:00.003+08:00

i hate snakes, cockroaches, spiders, lizards, frogs, chameleons, reptiles and everything slimy.

and today i was like within a 5m radius of a bat, a snake, a spider, lizard, chameleon. talk about worst week ever.

i almost died when i accidentally saw the dude take out that frozen snake, like wl i dont know my heart and brain goes into PANIC OVERLOAD mode whenever i see those stupid disgusting mutant creatures.

one day they will all die :D

and the world would be a better place without them.

shopping with fleur aftersch was awesome :D i love you fleur.

you'll always be a part of me

2010-10-24T18:53:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAC POSEN. YOU MAKE THE MOST SOPHISTICATED DRESSES EVER, AND I LOVE YOU(Y)

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im like hoooked on david cook right now, and kesha's and rihanna's new song!

dont know how i survived camp, 3 days without music :(

monday tomorrow, shoulder + back still aching from the hard wooden bed

but i had the best sleep last night!! 12h so shiokkkk.

gonna watch scary movie later :D

tomorrow will always be a better day!!

and yes losiying i miss sleeping with you too k. :D

im scared for chinese o levels :(

17 days left omgggg.

panic. my chinese suckssss.

its like downward spiral la ever since beginning this year :(

somehow i must figure a way to save my a1 from going down the drainnn.

I CAN DO THIS! if i can walk that broken bridge at camp, i can do anything!!